Baby, baby, baby

I received some interesting news yesterday. We had to have an ultrasound to check the size of our baby, because I've been measuring quite big lately. Well, I was fairly worked up about the possibility of my doctor wanting to induce me, due to a big baby, but now I have something completely different to be worked up about: dear little baby is breech. Ugh.

I seriously never even considered that this could happen. Everything with my first pregnancy was so normal that I figured this would be, too. So, we have a new task upon our hands: turn this baby...and soon!

Our doula came with us to the ultrasound, and boy was I glad. The only thing I could think was, "I'm going to have to have a c-section, and we've just spent hundreds of dollars on the Bradley Birthing class and the doula, in order for me to have an unmedicated birth." Granted, I feel SO much more educated and empowered about pregnancy and birth that it's still worth it, even if I end up with a c-section, it's just a bummer.

So our doula immediately suggested I get in to see a chiropractor who does the Webster Technique - something used to help breech babies to flip. It's quite successful, from what I'm learning. By helping the uterine ligaments to relax, many times the baby will have just enough extra room to make the flip, as an irritated, tight ligament can hold a baby in place and not allow it to move. I definitely had an irritated ligament yesterday.

I will also see an acupuncturist on Monday, and everyday next week, in addition to the chiropractor, until something happens, or until we know that it's not going to happen. I have my 37 week prenatal appt on Monday and will also discuss an external version, where the doctor tries to manually turn the baby, which I've heard can be pretty intense. It honestly freaks me out, but I need to learn more before I make a decision.

I have been trying to strategically position myself at home as well: kneeling on the couch, and lowering myself down until my head is as close to the floor as I can get it. Not comfy, and my arms are pretty wimpy, so I don't last long, but I'm going to keep doing it.

It's been a roller coaster of emotions regarding this whole ordeal. First I had to deal with the thought of being induced due to a big baby, but now the thought of a c-section makes induction seem like a day at the park. I shed a few tears last night, crying out to God that I don't want a c-section. This morning I broke down again, as I tend to be more pessimistic than optimistic. Chris was there to help me see there's no known reason why this baby won't flip, as we caught the issue just in time.

I don't want to have major abdominal surgery. I've heard some people say it's great, cause you don't have to go through labor, but I've heard more people say it's not great, which is what I'm inclined to believe.

I'm trying to do some self-examination re: what is it that God wants me to learn or change that he's allowing this to happen? Is there some reason behind this baby being breech?

I've asked the elders to pray over me tomorrow morning at church, and will ask at Spirit Soak tomorrow night. With God all things are possible. I KNOW he understands my heart on this issue.

Very Pregnant

So, today, 10 months after my last post, I remembered that I have a blog, and decided to write in it. And yes, I'm very pregnant. In approximately 6 weeks, I will be giving birth to a new little human. I'm both anxious, excited, and terrified. As I watch my belly bounce around with the movements of Baby #2, I remember the, uh, interesting birth I had with Elijah, and continue to pray that things go completely differently this time. Different, as in, better. As in, no epidural, no spinal headache, no blood loss, no blood transfusions, no nursing problems, no dehydration...get the idea? It wasn't pretty. But I do have an adorable, sweet, amazing little boy now, so I'm very thankful for that. He's currently watching the Food Network right now, which I find both endearing, and troubling, as I really don't want him to be glued to the television. But, considering the FN is the best channel on the waves, I'll let it slide for now. :)

I don't have much energy today. Glad to be home, but also frustrated by the fact that instead of being home and enjoying myself, I have to think about the garage sale we're having this weekend, provided it doesn't rain, the 10 hours of work I need to complete at home this week, and find myself generally uncomfortable that my time is never mine, nor is it enough. I suppose this is something that I must get used to? Is that right? Jesus said that he came that we might have abundant life. I don't think I need to get used to this time deficit, I think I need to remember that God will give me enough time in each day for everything he gives me to do. That means I need to be more in tune with him, so that I'm not doing things that he doesn't give me to do. Hmmm....nice ponderings for a rainy Wednesday afternoon.

I was totally and completely just blessed by my friend Wanda who called and asked if she could bring Nichole's for lunch...OF COURSE!!! You can always bring Nichole's to my house for lunch - just in case anyone out there reads this and wonders... :) It definitely turned my day around - gave me a reason to get out of my pajamas, curl my hair, put makeup on, and be a normal person for the day! Got my mental health out of the toilet and back to normal, too. Thanks you Wanda!